As you can see, he is one who *smiles* no matter what.
That was my 25th AOL Journal entry. 5th sentence. Penny posted hers, and challenged all of us to do the same. Apparently, a few journalers (I don't know who, but I'd like to thank them) started this. It was a neat experience for me this morning.
::oops:: After reading this a second time, I see the assignment was supposed to be the 5th sentence of the 23rd entry. Oh, well. I haven't got the time to do this all over. This, my journal friends is an example of how sleep and nutrition deprived I am. I could delete this, do it all over, and you'd never know that I messed up. But, then you'd have nothing to laugh about right now, now would you? Besides, this was going to partly be my entry today anyway...
Here's what you do::
1) Go into your AOL-J archives.
2) Find your 23rd post (or closest to).
3) Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4) Post the text of the sentence in your AOL-J along with these instructions.
Ironically, the day I posted that entry, Stephen was sick. Just like he is now. I guess that's the average news of our house. The day I made that entry, it was early October, and it was his 5th day to miss school. This has been a roller-coaster school year. It started out on the wrong foot, then it got a little better, then..my faith was finally restored (almost) and then took a turn for the worse again last week. Thank God, summer is almost here. He's missed close to 50 days if not more I stopped keeping up with it. Maybe, I am over protective. Maybe, I shelter him too much. But, at least when he's with me, 24/7 he's not sick every time we turn around. I keep his hands washed, and his room dust and germ-free. His hands are often filthy when he gets home every day from playing on the playground. He keeps his hands in his mouth a lot of the time. Thus, always coming down with something. He gets sick so easy, and when he does, it takes so long for him to shake it. I've had to start breathing treatments again. Because of his heart deformity, he suffers when he has a cold.
I was going to make a post this morning, telling you all that Stephen is sick and needs your prayers and get-well vibes, and post the very picture that I posted the day I made that 25th entry. So, I'm gonna keep it that way. Even though it's supposed to be your 23rd entry :)
I know you haven't been seeing me around very much this week. I did visit a lot of journals, but didn't leave replies on all of them. I'm terribly sorry about that. I have so little free time. After I've read someone's journal entry and don't leave a comment, I feel as though I've been to your home, looked in your window and didn't ring the doorbell to say hi. I promise, I'll try to make myself at least say "hello" before I leave your journals. That way, I won't be considered a Peeping Tom. :P
Please, pray for Stephen to get better. Pray for me to overcome my health problems so I can be a better mother. I've been sick with my "mystery illness" again for the last 2 months. I have a very sad fear that whatever is wrong with me, is going to be the death of me. Then, they'll diagnose it. Too late. I also have a feeling, that if I had a hysterectomy, it might help, because it's a cyclic type illness. I'm not ready to say, "I'll never have another child" even though, I know in my heart that I won't. Yet, I can't take proper care of Stephen and all of my other duties if I am sick for 2 weeks of every month. I can't figure out why I was getting better after my last procedure in the hospital, in November. Then, in March it hit me again like a ton of bricks. I'm so tired of doctors blaming it on stress. I think they say that too often to women, and too often when they are clueless. I do agree with all of the doctors on one thing. ...I need a vacation. I feel guilty for wanting time away from Stephen. From his dad. I keep having the same fantasy over and over. Me, by myself, all alone on a beach somewhere, reading my favorite book, sipping on something cold. It's so funny to think that someone who never wanted to be alone, desires that so much now. I don't want to be alone forever...just for a week or two. Don't we all want that? Need that? Time away from our family, our responsibilities. Recharge. Get to know yourself a little better.
Until next time...Lift Stephen up in your prayers, please! Have a nice weekend. If you do this little project, leave your link in my comment section so I can come over and be nosy :)
take care!
13 comments:
Hey I did not have a 5th sentence in my 23 entry. I had four!!!!!!! So does that say nothing about me or what. ?????
About your mystery illness. Try using herbs. I did and it does help. Like Black chohosh and sea kelp and a few others like evening primrose. Its what my OBGYN suggested and its helped. I hope you get better soon. I know what that is like. I pray also that Father protect stephen and make him well soon. It may be better if you homeschooled him so he can have a cleaner enviroment and maybe if he is not sick (Ithink that also gets your system down) then you wont be so easily weakened during your two week time. Yes I know it feels like you get to come into someones home by visiting journals. Its a way of visiting lots of freinds daily. I hope you will be able to stop by and just say HI if you dont have time to put a full post in. I know being tired makes it hard foryou to post your journal and visit and leave a message for everyone else. Lori
I'm sorry that you both are feeling bad today. Hmm, and I know what you mean about doctors sometimes dismissing female patients with the stress thing. Mia, there is absolutely nothing wrong with you wanting a break, a vacation for yourself, and maybe that's what you need, even if it's just a weekend. Either by yourself or with a bunch of girlfriends having a slumber type party at a hotel somewhere, near the beach would be really fun.
As always, you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Love you, Penny
ps. give yourself and the little guy a big hug from Dallis and I!
Sweetheart, we all need time away. When I first started taking little weekend trips to see my sister, I felt sooo guilty for leaving everything at home behind. But I quickly learned that I came BACK home a better person. And everyone benefited. Perhaps your husband and you should consider taking turns at little weekends away? Just get a hotel room and lay by a pool somewhere. Go with a friend or a cousin. Save your pennies.. it could do you a LOAD of good. And Stephen too. Guilt-free!
I'll be keeping Stephen in my thoughts and prayers. You too. I certainly understand your reluctance to have a hysterectomy, even though you doubt you'll have more children. It's just so hard having that option stolen from you. :(
I hope I can keep up with my replies. I gave it a go for a few weeks, but then it started taking time away from making entries and visiting others.... (so, forgive me in advance if I don't reply to all)
Lori-When/If I begin home schooling, you'll be the first on my list to contact. I know you send info before about the friend of yours with a special needs child and she home schools. THAT is so amazing! (thanks for the prayers!)
Penny-I am beginning to feel a little less guilty about it, bc I know it would be for the good of our whole family. My best friend and I have always dreamed of going to the beach, just the two of us. Maybe someday :) We need an AOL J sister retreat!!! Wonder how many would actually do it? Hmmm....
SloMo-yeah, saying good-bye to a possible, future addition to the family just feels wrong at this point in my life. I'm trying to hold off on that till I'm around 45. I know lots of women who have had children in their 40's. Vivian is one example. I think she was...41? She's a great mom, and her son is healthy and happy. You gave me an idea! Maybe, my best friend and I can't go to the beach and leave our families behind, but we could go to one of the hotels/spas in B'ham, dinner and movies! oh, what fun!
Well I do have to say that I pray for you and Stephen all the time and think of you guys always! But I will make this one an extra special prayer today for you both! I hope that both of you feel better and kick this to be the loving wonderful bright people with lots of energy that I know you are! I hope you have a good weekend Mia and tell Stephen hello for us and that we hope he feels better!
Prayers for Stephen - always! As for being absent - I'm right there with ya Mia. I feel the same, about looking in the window. Only with me, the curtains are down. I've been swamped this week - and will be for [hopefully] a long time to come. Lots of catching up to do all over the place, here and J-land. It's all good. But Mia - you really need to take care of yourself. Nutrients and rest are the most important thing you could give yourself right now. And lots of water. It's just not something that can be overlooked. Love you!!
Of course our prayers for you and Stephen are being sent with positive thoughts and healing love.
Oh Mia! I'm so sorry you are going through all of this right now. It just breaks my heart that I can't swoop in and make the world right for you. And, shoot don't feel guilty for wanting to get away alone. Shoot, I don't have half the responsibilities that you do and dream of getting away. {{{{{{{MIA}}}}}}}}}}} You can be a peeping Tom around my pad any time. I understand. :-) ---Robbie
Mara - we haven't been keeping up with things the best either, but we're going with a quote once learned from the Flylady, "You're never behind just jump in where you are at!" I figure that the first priority is writing for myself, the second priority is the reading, which I truely enjoy when time allows. We'll pray for Stephen to get stronger and that he'll share that gift with his mother. Sometimes I worry about you collecting strength to direct your own ship. *Smile* I think all the other saints had respites! Take care my love... Ayn and all
Mia.....I come by and act like a peeping tom here alot. It's just that it's hard to know what to say. But on your health issue I do have something to say:
I just turned 37 and have no children. I suffered with chronic endometerosis since I was a teenager and was accustom to the pain, the illness and the throwing up. So much so that I didn't realize my whole abdominal cavity had become infected and I almost died from it last August. I went to sleep thinking I was getting my apendix out, ar at worst my gall bladder and woke up to a complete hysterectomy (even my cervic.) The infection had spread everywhere.
This is sad but not why I am telling you....the good news is that I AM PAIN FREE now and even sex is not painful. This was a new lease on that part of my body. I do not feel less of a woman and the estrogen of today is very good.
I will lift you up in prayer. and send the best vibes I can send. :)
Dear Mia, it's not wrong to want some time to yourself at all! I'd say it's essential for your overall wellbeing. Take some time to yourself, maybe have hubby take care of Stepehen for an hour or so once a week. Then take a long hot bath, pamper yourself. It can do wonders. Even some quiet time listening to soothing music will make a big difference. Think of it as recharging or refueling.
I got the link from 2 scoops... last I looked, that was the last thing he put in there.
Sorry about all the sad health news here-- but I am thinkin' I know some other folks who smile no matter what.
We're all peeping toms, didn't you know?
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